My Dad always told me that you can never appreciate the good unless you experience the bad. He said that there is a balance in the world and we need both the good and the bad to achieve this balance.
This is so true of what I have been going through these past few weeks since my baby was born. There have been so many ups and downs, set backs and achievements. Whenever I think Little One is doing amazingly, a hiccup or a bump in the road comes up. Little One is doing really well though and the doctors say that they think she is a very strong and determined baby. She’ll be fine. She just needs time to grow and develop. After all, she’s still supposed to be inside Mommy’s womb for another nine weeks!
When I’m not with her at the hospital, I call the NICU at night. Okay, sometimes I call multiple times a night. If I’m up at 2AM to pump milk for her, I call. The nurses are amazing and say that they are there for the parents and know what we are going through. Phone calls at all hours of the day/night are great because it puts our minds at ease and the nurses are up all day/night with our babies anyway.
When I called tonight, I was shocked that Little One gained 110 g!!! Okay, I know that may not sound like an astronomical number, but in preemie talk, that is huge progress! She tends to gain on average 10 ~ 20 g a night. The most she’s gained was 60 g in one night. Hearing that she gained 110 g nearly made my jaw drop! I’m so happy! My little chub chub now weighs 1380 g! That’s just over 3 lbs!!! This is BIG news! (doing the happy dance here)
Incidentally, I had to check out the conversion from grams to pounds since I’m only familiar with pounds. Argh. I hate having to do all the conversions. I’ve never been good at math!
Having a baby in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit is definitely an emotional roller coaster ride. Each day is full of surprises. Some good, and sometimes some not so good. It’s also physically and mentally draining. The one thing that’s for sure is that you always worry about your baby’s condition and hope and pray that things either improve or keep going well. For the most part, Little One has been “coasting” through the weeks without a hitch…but in the past week she’s had a few episodes that to me were scary. Apparently, (or so the doctors tell me) many preemies rarely get by without a hitch. Little One has been very fortunate that she’s had no major issues. Whatever she is going through is normal for a baby her gestational age.
Just an aside: I cannot believe the holidays are just around the corner! It’s December ALREADY?!?!?! I gave birth three weeks ago??? Where on earth did November go? My birthday is coming up, then Christmas, then New Year’s…and then it’ll be 2009. I still cannot believe Little One was supposed to be born in 2009 but she changed her birth year to 2008! Gah! I haven’t even thought of the holidays yet. I don’t know if I’ll get around to sending out Christmas cards this year. I haven’t had time to get Christmas presents for anyone either. *sigh* Right now my life is pretty much all about the baby.