Rollercoaster rides. That is what having a preemie in the hospital is. I keep saying this, but it’s true. Sorry I haven’t been able to update the blog recently. It has been really busy with all the changes and I haven’t even had time to breathe.
1. Hubby was able to spend Christmas with Little One and me. He was in Toronto from Wednesday to Sunday.
2. Little One’s first Christmas was spent with her Mama and her Papa. She hated wearing the preemie Santa Claus hat we put on her though! Photos to be posted later on this evening when I return from the hospital.
3. She has been breathing room air on her own since December 23. No more CPAP!
4. She was moved from her incubator into a crib!
5. She has been thriving! She’s breastfeeding like a champ!
6. She was moved to the Level 2 Nursery on December 26! One step closer to home!
7. I get to do most of the care myself in Level 2. It’s practice for when she comes home!
The Not So Good:
1. Hubby had to return to the Island and now I’m alone again.
2. I’ve been finding it really rough to deal with things on my own. I’m tired of being here. I’m tired of having to commute (and hour here and an hour back) every day to be with my baby. I’m tired of not being home. I’m just tired.
3. Last night I called the hospital to check in on Little One and she had a CBC (to check for her hemoglobin level) and other bloodwork done, as well as a chest x-ray. Her numbers (oxygen saturation and respiration) have been swinging a lot for the past two days. The doctor wanted to do a full septic on her and I was a bit upset because this would be her second (No, third LP aka: spinal tap because the first one was unsuccessful) since she’s been here. They thought she had an infection but all the results came back normal. Anyway, her CBC level is not just okay, but GOOD. They said that most preemies have levels of 80 or so and they would like it to be over 100. Little One’s was 111. Apparently, she was just tired and is growing and sometimes preemies just need a little bit of help. She is now on low-flow oxygen, but just 5 cc’s. It’s like me giving her a puff of air by blowing on her. It’s not a lot, but probably just what she needs. She’ll be on low-flow for a few days most likely. The nurse I spoke to last night and this morning (yes, I called at 5AM when I was pumping!) said that Little One is doing great and has settled.
4. Maybe I worry too much, but now that she’s in a big girl’s crib, I feel like she’s more open to germs and people touching her. When she was in the incubator, it seemed like she was more protected. I know she needs to be in a crib and I am happy that she’s in a crib. I’m just being paranoid because of RSV and the fact that she’s a preemie and her immune system isn’t that strong yet.
5. See #’s 3 and 4.
6. I’m worried that she will be transferred to another hospital soon because that’s normally what happens in Level 2. The babies then move to a hospital closer to home, but the closest hospital with a Level 2 nursery to us is still two and a half hours away.
7. Gah! I just can’t wait for her to be bigger, stronger, and ready to come home! I am aware that once she is home I will be just as tired and worn out, but at least I’ll be home and I won’t have to travel every day to be with her. There’s also something more comfortable about being at home and being able to do your own thing.
Photos to come soon! I promise! Again, sorry for being such a bad sister, friend, teacher, cousin, daughter, etc. It’s been a crazy few weeks of ups and downs. I guess I’m just being hypersensitive. Little One is doing really well in the grand scheme of things. She is acting “normal” for a preemie. That’s what the doctors and nurses keep telling me. Wow. If this is “normal”, I’d hate to think of what “not normal” would be like. Okay, I’ll stop being overly emotional and count my blessings. Little One is a trooper and a very strong girlie. She’s doing great. Hmmm…Keep repeating that to yourself, C! 🙂