Today wasn’t as bad as yesterday or the day before. Leaving my baby at the hospital at end of the day was hard but not nearly as emotional as the first day I was discharged from the hospital without my baby. I think mostly because I am just plain exhausted. My life right now is basically pumping milk for the baby, commuting to the hospital and back, spending time with the baby in the NICU and doing it all over again.
Our little one continues to amaze me. I simply cannot believe she is already 5 days old! She was inside me five days ago! I was just getting used to all the crazy kicking and moving around (this kid was so active in the womb and is so active outside of the womb)! I was anticipating being hugely pregnant but never had a chance to get that big. She just came so fast! 28 weeks!
Today, she had her eyes opened and whenever I spoke she would look in my direction. I know babies this young can’t really see anything (except for probably a blurry outline of shapes or something), but she would look in my direction. She reacts when I sing to her. When I was pregnant, I used to sing all the time. I’d sing French songs in the shower and today when I sang a few French songs to her, she would suck rapidly and clutch onto my finger with her tiny hand.
My little girl amazes me. She is so sweet. I broke down today when I realized that “Oh my goodness! I’ve got a daughter!!!”. It just hit me today. I think everything that has happened this week was just overwhelming and I’m overly tired and still very hormonal. The nurse told me to go home and sleep. The good thing is that even if I go home around supper time, I can call the NICU at any hour of the day or night and the nurse will keep me posted on how the little one is doing.
Thank you all for being so supportive. It really means a lot to us. I PROMISE to e-mail and check out some of your blogs (and leave comments) SOON. Things have just been so crazy here. I promise I’ll be less of a negligent daughter, granddaughter, niece, cousin, sister, friend, teacher, wife, and blog friend. Right now it’s been all about the baby. Hopefully I’ll settle into some kind of schedule soon. I just don’t like leaving my baby at the end of the day. THAT is the hardest thing.
Thank you to some of you who have suggested nicknames for the babe. I don’t want to use her real name on the blog. I don’t use real names for any of my friends, family or students on here. If you’ve got some other suggestions for nicknames, let me know 🙂
So far we have:
*Birdie (suggested by Sharon)
*Star, Jaime (J’aime), Cara – beloved, (or Kara), Bella (suggested by Gadget Girl)
*Little One (my suggestion)
*Junior (Hubby’s suggestion)
More photos to be posted soon. Now I think I need to get some sleep. *sigh* It’s only 6:30 PM!